Just Start Muttering
My ecclesial history began with Protestantism; to wit, as a lad I having Jewish friends, Catholic friends, having Mormons and Jehovah's Witnesses knock on the door, asked my mom what religion are we?
Her reply? "We're Protestants." That apparently was to be the end of the matter, as no further explanation was forthcoming. I had no idea at all (at that age) what a Protestant was, or what were in fact protesting.
I guess we were protesting the whole thing, because the only church we ever darkened the doors of as a family was my grandma's. And that only when we annually traveled to visit her. That, aside from maybe a VBS ("Vacation Bible School") or two was the sum total of my church experience growing up.
Quite frankly what piqued my interest in church was the cute girl at the drugstore who invited me. We spent countless hours together talking about life, the universe, and everything. We visited:
Assemblies of God
As I had no prior experience, or theological instruction, upon which to draw I had no preconceived notions about what church was. And darn if some of it didn't stick! I prayed the sinner's prayer, and promptly went to a party to get drunk.
I didn't have a fat clue of what a Christian was, or how they comported themselves. I don't know how much praying I did, but I did carry around a Bible given to me by my grandma; it was a large, white KJV (King James Version) affair. At the time, I didn't know it was a family Bible, and was meant more for a coffee table than for constant, conspicuous carrying around.
As I awakened to the the message of the Gospel, it seemed the next step was to get baptized. I mean that's what believers do, right? Get dunked/sprinkled/submersed/wet...
So I did on a warm September evening some four months after "accepting Christ." I really didn't grok at the time that it was some kind of big deal to be baptized, as my then-girlfriend's family indicated that they wished they'd been there.
I didn't know it was some kind of symbolic affair significant of anything other than basic obedience to one of Jesus's commands. Afterwards, I didn't feel anything other than wet.
Somehow, after being baptized at an Assemblies of God church, we ended up attending a Charismatic fellowship. It wasn't until much later that I knew it was weird. And by weird I mean I had a fun experience being prayed over by a group white shirt wearing, yellow pit stained elders who wanted me to "recieve the initial evidence of the indwelling."
Translation: they we're praying for me to receive the gift of tongues, or in more formal parlance, glossolalia. They, being Charismatic, made it a doctrinal certainty that speaking in tongues was the evidence of the indwelling of the Holy Spirit; in other words, the practice tongues were to make me a living proof text of God's work in my life...
The result? I mean I was willing, wanting whatever God has for me. So, sure. I was young, naive, and having no religious background thought why not?
When it didn't happen, as these four grown men, sweaty-faced, their voices rising in ecstatic fervor, lapsing in and out of their Heavenly Languages, as they circled my seated form, finally (and flatly) stated: "Don't worry, brother; it'll happen. Just start muttering."
Just. Start. Muttering.
I'm not sure that's what Paul had in mind when he wrote of the gift of tongues. Although I suppose I have been muttering to God ever since...
Highs and lows
Successes and failures
Jobs lost and found
Death, and new life.
And I'm thankful He's never yet despised the bleating of this wayward sheep.